-ChaowS- 11:08 AM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

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Happy Birthday To My Sister. Love You!*210307*
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Kau hilang bila ku tiba
Kau datang bila ku kecewa...
Terasa diri...di persenda...
Dimana berakhirnya nanti
Permainan sendiwara mu ini...
Sesungguhnya aku... tak mengerti...

Jika benar cinta itu buta...
Butakah mata ku...
Berkali terluka masih jua... ku merindu...
Apa yang ku inginkan...
Cuma kejujuran dalam perhubungan...

-ChaowS- 7:58 AM

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Accidental Love Became Lost Love

My longest post I've posted. I don't know the purpose. Its nothing special but please, do read on. Its only about why I can't forget Aaz, since the day I met her till now. This is how it all started.

I was at an escalator in school on my first day @ ITE. A girl pulled my shirt from behind and asked what course I was in.*dang! she was cute!* I told her that I'm in logistic. She said that she was, too. She then said, 'Good! lets go to the auditorium together!'*of course, i said yes!* When outside the auditorium, I wanted to know her name so I offered to find her name from 5 long lists of classes. I'm in LC and she is LB.*haish* We entered auditorium and got separated there.

The next few weeks, I saw her in school. Her self-assurance told me that she could have had a boyfriend then, so I didn't get to know her better. But, we exchanged smiles when we saw each other along the corridor. One day in a lecture hall with few other classes, she messaged me. I asked her the source of where she got my number. My friend is her classmate, he gave her my number. For 2 weeks, we talked on the phone. She was single. We then started hanging out before being an official couple.

During that time, she loved me more than a diamond. She cared for me more than I care for myself. She pampered me more than pampering a baby. She was my heaven then.

For 2 months++, I was happy with my life and its surroundings, until the day my ego got the better of me.*010906* Without fights, misunderstandings and quarrels, we got separated.*where did it go wrong?* 230 days have past, and I'm still regretting on what I had done. Maybe, it's because, she used to tell me that I was the reason she dare to love again and that she's the reason I liked going to school. But now, she is happily attached with Epol and as much as I hate it, I'm happy for her too. I'll be waiting until the day I am able to pinch her cute face again. Btw Aaz, you can still rely on me on becoming your listening ears.

Chaows!

-ChaowS- 9:36 AM

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

I am supposed to be studying but I cant.*stress lah* Tomorrow is my final paper and guess what, I went to catch a movie, alone!*must have been crazy* I watched 'Stomp The Yard'. Was actually fun not watching with anyone as there is like no one to disturb your concentration to the movie. The show was kinda slow in the beginning. But, it end up with a Bang! However, 'You Got Served' is still my favourite dance movie.

Other than the part of dancing, some parts of the show depicts me. Its abt a guy, trying to do the best he can to impress a girl he wants. However, the girl has a guy whom she don't feel loved with. The girl also has green as her favourite colour. However, in the movie, he had a happy ending. But, will I?

miracles will happen, i just know it

time heals everything, just follow the beat

the choice was yours, you have chosen

i'm just waiting, but it just wont happen

-ChaowS- 9:57 AM

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I need an explaination... FAST! Why did u go?

Miss Narcissist, Aaz

here's a good fren of mine, boncet. she is a great company whenever she is with you. but now, no more going out, and chilling out at cafe's i guess. she's back to her old life... well, you noe where to find me... good luck... chaows!

btw, its 6 am and im like almost drunk, so nytes.

-ChaowS- 3:17 PM

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Monday, March 12, 2007

Been a while since I blog about things around me *all this while, its abt aaz*. Exams was like difficult just now. Stress up because of exams and some other things. Played soccer to cool off and ya, I'm still stressed up. Dad's getting better, tomorrow another check-up for him. No more court visiting for now, haish! 2 more exams before holidays so ya, I should be studying but just can't concentrate. Well, off to catch a late night movie now at town, *member blanje mah*. So, tata.

P.S. Good luck to Yan cause tmr he's gonna be N.S.men... Dah takde setan ar crew aku... Haish! Suffer ar kau kat dalam... Hahaha. But still, gd luck yaw!
Chaows!

Kau timbul bila ku ingin melupakanmu

Kau pergi bila ku ingin mendakapmu

Apa erti segala yang berlaku?

Mungkinkah cubaan bagiku?

Setiap malam, kutatapi potretmu

Titisan air mengalir dari mata KU

Ingin ku memberitahu

Akan kesetiaan ku kepada mu

-ChaowS- 8:15 AM

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

"gallery"-Mario Vazquez

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs close
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

-ChaowS- 8:42 AM

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

You are a drug that makes me high
You are a jet that makes me fly
A tear on you saddened me too
A smile on you brightens my blue
Shades of colours blinds the eye
Never will I say goodbye
Pictures of you in my gallery
Songs depicts you in my MP3
I never wanna make you cry
Wanna hold you again before I die
A shorty like mine is just so fine
A boncet like you never came in two
A replacement for you will be hard
I'm not choosing from any wild card
Will always choose you over everybody
Cause nobody defeats my Nurazri

"Gallery"- Mario Vasquez

-ChaowS- 10:32 AM

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Monday, March 05, 2007

When i thought everything was changing for the better...

Ever felt happy, sad, frustrated, angry, lonely, confused and agitated all at the same time? Guess what, I am feeling that feeling, and its not good. Everything just seem to be meaningless. I know I shouldn't be but I cant help it. Haish... If only I could put in words.

You shouldn't deny what u have been feeling all this while. Ya, you always make my day everytime you are near me but I feel as if I'm no use to you(which i know im not). I know you need time to yourself, after what happened. All I am asking for is a chance to prove myself worthy and that you wont be leaving me all alone again.

a second with you is like a year

guess i've reached a lighyear by now

i rather be the bear u hug each night

than not seeing and holding u tight

I'll Be - Edwin McCain

-ChaowS- 11:24 PM

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Saturday, March 03, 2007

Bad Day Turn Great

Start off with waking up late and reached work 1/2 hr later, resulting in the deduction of pay by 1hr. First time I served lunch that bad, queue was super long (it was worst than normal weekday) and I am the only sandwich-maker (weekdays, there's 2 sandwich maker). Damn tiring. Got reprimanded for doing wrong sandwich and got a complaint. Somehow, my mind went astray.

But, my day was much better when Aaz came to see me, along with Filza. Made her a sandwich. Aaz seemed to have grow chubbier by the day (what have u eaten?). (: Sent her back to Jurong (yup, I miss that place). Went home straight. The journey home was super long. Memories of those days still lingers. Haish. Now, that makes me miss her more.

Btw, Man U won 1-0, yippee! Chaows!!!

-ChaowS- 9:09 AM

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

My Mixed Emotions on 1st March

Sad- Saddening to hear from Irah that my ex, Aaz and her guy, seemed much happier than before. Guess thats why she doesnt reply and msg me anymore. Happy Luck to You Two. I won't be disturbing you then. But don't worry cause I won't forget your sandwich.

Anger- Accompanied my sister and dad to family court to a hearing. My sister won case but temper boils when defendant's brother argued with my father. He was cursing my sister. Lucky for you, there were cops around. If not for them, I guess you'll be in ICU.

Worried- My dad is still sick. He shouldn't have went to court just now cause he was quiet the whole day, after the incident. Praying for him to get better, SOON!.

Happy- Its payday today. And that put the smile on my face for the rest of my day. (:

All I want is a minute by your side.

To make my soul in full delight.

The messages u gave, it makes me smile.

I've wasted my chances, all this while.

I just hope for it to be true.

Cause I will be waiting on, just for you.

Call me stupid, I prefer it blind.

I never stop loving a girl so fine.

Only your picture fits my photoframe.

And my last breath will say your name.

-ChaowS- 9:50 AM

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